Sisters...

I know that I have probably posted about this subject before, however I feel so strongly to write about it again. I have been blessed with such wonderful sisters. I have two blood sisters, Whitney and Rachel and so many adoptive sisters, (too many to name). Call me selfish, but I have always, always wanted a best friend, someome to talk to when times were tough, someone to listen to when their lives were hard. Someone to comfort me. For the most part, I never realized that my Sisters have always been there.

Last night, my Sister Whitney and I were out and about getting items to make for dinner. Even though for the last four year we have not been close, we have not shared experiences, she KNOWS me better than ANYONE, because she's my sister.

"Sisters are a gift to the heart

a friend to the spirit

a golden thread to the meaning of life"

Isadora James

My sister was talking about some things that have/or are currently going on in her life, and I couldn't help but think of my past and how back then her situation now was/is so similar to mine back then. I couldn't help myself to forget or even put behind me what has happened, however the feelings of hurt, relation or anger started to stir in me, and she pointed out to me that I was not happy. Being hard to admitt, she was very right. She pointed out that I was not allotted the healing time I needed to get over the things that I had done, but rather made beautiful and great choices in my life that would bring anyone happiness, however because I had not healed from previous experiences I didn't even know how to fully enjoy the beautiful and good choices I have made thus far because I am so broken from my past. After a good talk with my husband and expressing to him my feelings, I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and he reminded me of the love he has for me and for our future and family. He is truly the best man and the only man I have ever truly loved and will love for the rest of my life and all eternity. He is the first good choice that I have ever made in my life, and how grateful I am to have him.

I can't tell you that by the simple things she had said, with not even having a moment like this in the last four years, she hit the spot on my feelings dead-on with every single thing she said. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father loved/loves me enough to send a woman like her into my life, to be there for me, to remind me, to mourn with me, to listen, to converse, to nurture, I am just so grrateful for her and for the love that she showed me last night. I am so grateful for her and to have her back home, reunited with our famliy and more herself again.

I thank my Heavenly Father for my sister, and for her reminding me of the good things that I have done, and tells me to forget the bad things. Even though I am older, her words of wisdom brought the most comfort to me than I have felt for a long time.

I love my sisters...

Rachel, Whitney and Me